I'm delighted to report that last night, we spent several hours at some friends' house, and Abi did super! She wasn't even unduly upset by their dog.
If I'm reporting on her progress, I might as well report on my own as well. I enjoyed our time with friends, and didn't have undue anxiety. I'm also doing a new Bible study with a friend that seems to be helping with the depression too. Accepting my role as a housewife that God has me in right now seems to be a key to finding contentment and peace. I know that sounds strange to say after seven years, but parenting an especially needy child when I'd rather be doing something else during my days has been more taxing than it needs to be. I've always envied those women who are delighted to stay home with their kids, and keep house, since that is my role right now. If I can let my grasp on the future go, and embrace my life right now, I have a feeling that new joy is waiting to be discovered. :)
Go check out Ann Voskamps blog or book "one thousand gifts". Her poetic contemplative writing style doesn't appeal to everyone but helped me through a hard season.
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