Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Little Mister Goes to Preschool

When I dropped Curly Miss off this morning the teacher informed me that her aide was gone that day and she was looking for a substitute. Since I had no plans and the teacher welcomed Little Mister into the class, I stayed to help.

Mister was in seventh heaven. He got to be in Preschool with Curly, just as if he was big! He got to paint with the watercolors and build with the blocks. He played with the toy dogs and have a snack. He even got to put on his coat and go outside with the class and play on the playground. (That was my least favorite part.)

I was surprised to discover that I actually knew most of the kids' names. Since the class had all girls but one, the atmosphere seemed more mellow than I had expected. I enjoyed myself more than I thought I would. Ever since I had such a bad experience teaching several years ago, I have shied away from classes of any kind, even though it was never the kids I had trouble with. But I just never have wanted to get back on the horse so I don't volunteer for Sunday School or field trips. Today was a rare exception and it went so well I breathed a sigh of relief.

This week I also paid the semester's tuition for Preschool. That was painful, especially since we're trying to save every penny for the adoption. Taking a good look at my life, I have discovered that I am WAY too stressed out about our finances. I wish I could find a way to relax and just trust God, but I can't seem to shut my brain off. And ever since I got so sick after my experience at Colton, my body simply won't handle stress. I get depressed, get headaches and feel tired and sluggish. Somehow I have got to find a happy place in order to be around my family. So far no luck, but I keep on slogging through each day, hopeful that tomorrow will be better.

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  1. Erin....thanks for dinner last night...delish...thanks to Matt, as well. You guys have a beautiful family. Your home is lovely, your vast amount of creativity is evident and the kids are very well behaved (and so very sweet). Finances will most likely always be an 'issue'.....not unlike most families..:-) Matt has a great job (many folks don't right now as I'm sure you are aware of). So, I guess what I'm trying to say is 'relax' and focus on and enjoy ALL of the BLESSINGS that God has given to you. I say this in love.....SMA

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  2. So glad Little Mister had fun!
    I hear you on the finances. I think especially when you have come from a tighter place, it's probably harder to give up the stress when you have stressed so much before. I know that adoptions are muy expensivo. Will you be reimbursed with taxes? Does the University(Matt's still working there, right?) help out? I know some employers do.

    In any case, I'm sure you will find a way to make things work. You are pretty good at that! And if all else fails, you can teach Natta at home. You are really good at that, too! I know you struggle with that idea, but remember, there are still ways to feed Natta's social hunger w/out having to dole out a ton of money!

    God bless you, friend!

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