Where has the time gone? I haven’t blogged since February and it’s now July? Yikes!
It’s getting harder to blog as the kids get older. I’m more aware of their need for privacy and how telling my story overlaps with telling their stories.
This spring, finishing school and leaving fourth grade, Abi’s story became a lot harder as some pretty severe trauma behaviors surfaced. I’ll stick to my story (rather than sharing too much of hers) and say that coping has been pretty tough.
Hubby gave me a few much-needed respite days at the cabin to process all the emotions the situations had brought up.
I spent a lot of time on the hammock praying, crying, just breathing in the scent of the woods.
I also used the time to read two wonderful books. “Beyond Consequences” is one that has been on my list for a long time and I was amazed at how accurately it described Abi’s trauma behaviors and suggested the motivations behind them that are based in fear and how easy it is for me to love her and help her ease those fears once I have faced my own issues and triggers. (As if that is ever easy! But oh so worth it!)
Then, I read my friend Niki’s latest book that details her adoption story, a tale that I watched unfold first-person. Still, it was fun to read her book and reminded me that we always make it through the times when it feels like we are swimming through the deep ocean with no land in sight.
For Presidents’ Day, we headed to the cabin, but a cold snap came through and we couldn’t get the uninsulated shack warm enough to be comfortable. So we went home again. The kids did have fun sledding for a while.
We got school and work off today to celebrate Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. Day. Our family decided to spend the day at the cabin.
The kids discovered that the icy snow was just right for making snow sculptures. Having recently watched a documentary on the Ice Hotel, they were keen to try their own artistic endeavors.
Bean made a snow castle.
We took the dogs, of course. Coco loved the cabin, as I expected. What’s not to like about woods and treats and walks and a ride in the car?
It takes a true Pyro to start a fire in the snow. I’d like to note that yours truly made this little beauty for the kids to “roast stuff on.”
Apparently roasting stuff mostly meant eating mini marshmallows out of the bag.
During lunch, Hubby read to the kids. We are finishing Treasures of the Snow, set in the Swiss Alps, which seemed particularly appropriate for a winter cabin visit.
Darkness comes early in the winter, so we lit candles and played games and fixed one-pot chicken and rice for dinner.
I let the Littles eat up in the loft, which they thought was a fun treat.
Munching Seth’s brownies, singing hymns together on the drive home... it was one of those rare days when the kids had sweet attitudes, the weather was perfect, the cabin cozy and warm. Life really doesn’t get much better.
As much as I love our extended families on both sides, my favorite way to celebrate Christmas is home with our little family. We do the candlelight Christmas Eve service at church, and open one present on Christmas Eve. Then presents and a somewhat special meal on Christmas Day.
As much as I enjoy traveling, it’s exhausting and stressful with four kids and chronic health issues. Staying home is just so relaxing in comparison. Still, we love our families and hope we’ll see them soon.